bring it on!

the results are in regarding our initial evaluation sa office. all the efforts (efforts gyud... heheh) paid off siguro kasi the people there said that they are very satisfied with us. they admitted that at first they were kinda hesitant to let us in sa office nila, considering that wala pa silang experience na maghire ng foreigner and should i mention dahil na rin sa level ng nihongo namin? heheh... :) but ngayon?!! they are happy with us (harhar!). (hopefully that would be enough for them to let us stay. heheh)

kaya ayan ang bossing namin, proud na proud at kinu-congratulate nya talaga kami. and proud din sya sa sarili nya daw kasi tama daw yung mga actions nya before. at ang dami ding mga pangaral para sa amin ang binitawan nya. masakit marinig galing sa ibang tao ang pagsabihan ka na ang problema ng lahi mo ay kulang sa disiplina sa sarili. kelangan pa daw na daanin sa strikto na treatment bago pa lalabas ang totoong disiplina. i think pinaninindigan na talaga ng bossing ko ang pagiging guro niya sa amin dito. for me, ok lang din, ina-admit ko din na napakabata pa ng mga pananaw ko sa mga bagay-bagay sa buhay... so bring it on!

sabi nya na if ever we achieve our personal goals of coming here in japan, we must not stop there. don't ever relax and be satisfied with anything. keep on dreaming, keep on taking up new challenges. if we'll do this, we can achieve even more of what they had/could sa buhay nila. hindi daw kami nila inimbita para gawing "golden eggs" that will bring money to them. we are free anytime to say what we want to do and to discuss anything with them. they are giving us the freedom to be creative. parang kinakilabutan ako sa while he was saying all these things.

that night, i was so proud of myself. of pushing through with this whole thing of leaving a life back home, of getting out of my comfort zone. aaminin ko, bata pa ako, i dreamed about this, i 've wanted to work in a foreign country just like millions of filipinos back home. but now, i can truly say that there's really nothing special about it. it's not paradise, there are 2 sides of the coin. nothing beats home! living in the philippines, kahit ma(y)gulo, is still the best option for a true-blooded pinoy like me. :)

ang future ay malabo pa rin. hindi ko masasabi kung saan ako mapadpad 3 or 6 months from now, things can just happen. but i am not complaining, i have learned to love this state of having no idea of the things to come. :)