busy days are here again!

It's almost the end of a work day here in Japan. I could already see Raneil and Guia filling up their daily report. But, oh my, to me it feels like the day has just started. Body clock gone strange huh? Well, what else could it be if one's stressed out, sleep-deprived, loveless, lifeless, and drained for 3 straight weeks including Saturdays! Do you even know how this feels? It's like, thanks to JK Rowling, being kissed by a Dementor. :(

I guess this is what happens when you get involved in something that you had no idea about. When it turns bad, really bad, all you could do is just to stay afloat. For someone who wants to fly, this is quite shameful.

I've always believed that things happen to a person because he let them happen or at least created circumstances for them to happen (I only mean those that are within his control). In my own case, I can trace it all back to the day when I was asked whether I have development experience in this and that, and I said "yes!" with a smile of confidence and hopefulness. Oh, oh! I was so naive. This illustrates the problem with "YES! YES!" and "GO! GO!" people like me. We just don't know when to say "NO". Seeing something good in everything could make a person blinded of its true effects and consequences. I don't know whether this is something to be proud of, sometimes it serves me well but sometimes, nah, just look at me now and you'll know what I'm talking about.

Learning and acquiring experiences don't come without something in exchange. How sad naman. :(

p.s. I wrote this blog while my boss is on the phone, negotiating to the client about getting an extension on our deadline!

p.s. Our project has been extended for one more month! A part of me says this development is good, at least I could learn a lot and dive into the topic even deeper. But a big part of me cries over the loss of time with friends, time talking on the phone with family back home, trips on weekends, chilling out, the list goes on.... Hahay... this is the so-called life! One really can't have everything.