what happened to u?

In the "Wishin' and Hopin'" Episode of Grey's Anatomy, Ellis who is also a surgeon blurted this out to her daughter Meredith.

ELLIS: "What happened to you?"
MEREDITH: "What do you mean?"
ELLIS: "You're happy? You're happy now? The Meredith I knew was a force of nature. Passionate, focused, a fighter. What happened to you? You've gone soft! Stammering about a boyfriend and saying you're waiting to be inspired. You're waiting for inspiration? Are you kidding me?! I have a disease for which there is no cure, I think that would be inspiration enough! Listen to me, Meredith. Anyone can fall in love and be blindly happy! But not everyone can pick up a scalpel and save a life. I raised you to be an extraordinary human being, so imagine my disappointment when I wake up after five years and discover that you are no more than... ordinary! What happened to you?!"

Poor Meredith! Nobody in my family would ever say this kind of thing to me. But what if somebody would? Maybe a teacher back in college who has all my respect and admiration, a dear friend who's always self-driven and focused on her career, or a senior colleague who believes and trusts in my abilities and potential, or worst, an old-self who was a competitive fighter full of ideals but somehow got pushed aside at one point after graduating from the university ... waahh! scary! (I had actually entertained the thought of writing a letter to an old-self apologizing for what I have become! hahah! :D don't worry guys, this was only for a very short period of time... all is well! :D )

However, I agree with the thought that inspiration is for amateurs, and that those who are PRO just have to do their job with the best possible way they can. Sometimes I could see myself as a PRO, but there were times that I dwelt at something else and waited for inspiration and for the right moment to come in. But as time goes on, I have learned. I've learned that waiting and waiting and waiting rarely yields any great results. And besides, I have become tired of waiting itself that I've decided (and am trying hard to uphold this decision like a true grown-up would) that I'll just do my best, continue with the work and feel like a pro.

Amen! :)